Why?

I've lost weight before.....a couple of times anyway. I actually lost 70 lbs in 2004 and have kept it off with the exception of 10 lbs.

This time I want it to be different. I want to see the weight loss to the end. To do that, I truly believe I have to understand why.

Why did this happen to me? Why did I allow this to become a way of life? What is in my family of origin that has created such physical dysfunction in my life?

The last few weeks I've been reaching deep and twisting myself into a pretzel as I ponder the stuff that needs to be fixed.

In the meantime, I concentrate on getting enough water....I'm up to 80 oz a day. I also concentrate on moving more.....taking every opportunity I can find and making it a priority to exercise.

Have I lost anything? Not a clue, my bathroom flooded and my scale stopped working. I'll get another one, but for right now, it's not about the losing as much as it's about healing the little girl who grew to be this fat woman.