Thursday, March 18, 2010

Let's Begin

Well, I've turned myself inside out trying to figure out why I'm fat. I could blame genes and my mother for never teaching me good habits. Or....I could blame myself and get depressed.

Instead I think that I'll learn to be mindful. To focus on the moment and try to understand why I feel what I feel before I stick anything in my mouth.

I started Weight Watchers today. I actually started paying for it two months ago, but only went to one meeting and then I allowed all the stresses of life to bulldoze over me. Just an excuse I know.

Beginning again. Yes, indeed.

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Oh Brother!

I've noticed that when I begin to focus on my health, I immediately start eating like I'm starving on a deserted island.

I truly believe that it triggers something in me. Something that is trying to protect me.

I. Hate. It.

I wear my fat like an insulated coat that keeps me safe.

Must ponder that.

Saturday, March 13, 2010

Starting Again

I read this a couple of days ago.....

"You're never too old to begin again".

I like that saying....alot.

This was going to be the year that I really got my health under control. I spent most of February sick and now here it is...March already.

I now have a job and our lives are beginning to have a pattern. I realize that weight loss and good health needs to happen regardless of the pattern or not pattern of life. But for me, I need to have a pattern to develop good habits.

So here I am again. I haven't gained any "new weight", but I have lost any nor have I been working at it.

I'm excited. I want to make this happen. Here's to not being too old!

Oh, and welcome to the new blog look.